Chae's Journal

A Pleasant Change..

2008-02-09T04:06:38Z

Gah, I've been really crappy about writing in my journal. Luckily, there's plenty of nice things to share.

Where to begin?

Well, let's start with the romantic developments. It started innocently enough with a simple comment, confirming my already know geeky side. great_bird_2 asked me what I thought of the teaser trailer for the new Star Trek movie. So after we went back and forth for a bit, we moved our playful banter to AIM.

It was there that we discovered that we both had a lot in common. As we talked, I was thinking "He's too good to be true, he's too good to be true". And I did something I thought I'd never do. I talked to him for the entire evening, into the wee hours of the morning. Screw that, I think we talked until the sun came up. It was very nice. So we've been talking now constantly these last couple of days.

I think I've finally found Mr. Right, I really do. He's smart and funny. He wants me to come up and see Seattle (I came this close *pinches fingers* to moving up there when I was researching culinary schools. I think it was has the some of best culinary diversity) and stay with him and quietly hold myself up going through his entire library

And you know something? He said that he fell in love with me when he first met me (thank you girl_gamers!!), but was cautious because he didn't want to seem like a LJ stalker....

*warm fuzzy* :3

I've convinced him to come down for D*C in August. So now, I've got seven months to get my shit together.

So in other happenings, I've started my lose weight regime by purchasing a few things, including a cookbook that helps me to regulate my caloric intake, and a yoga book. I also picked a book that was recommended for making bento. I'm gonna buy a bento box next. :3 I'm going to convince Mom to change her shopping habits (like stop buying junk food and start buying more healthy food).

So there's everything in a nutshell.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Quick Question...

2008-02-02T02:29:58Z

If they're any comic book fans on here, are any of you going to the Atlanta Comics Expo next weekend? I hadn't originally planned on going, but Gus Furlong (he's the same guy that's in charge on Registration @ Dragon Con) emailed this morning and told me that they needed volunteers for Registration as well. I agreed to help out. :3

So, just let me know if you guys are planning on attending or live in/near the Atlanta area and want to help out.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Taking Care of Things....

2008-02-01T17:51:43Z

So everything I needed to do for school has been done. I sent a transcript form to Stone Mountain, sent my application in, and filled out stuff for financial aid.

Yay :3

I'm thinking about selling my slim PS2 and my games. I don't play it at all anymore, I need the money, not to mention I'm thinking about getting a PSP (since I'm strictly playing handheld games now.).

I dunno, I'll think about it...

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

fuzzycthulhu @ 2008-01-28T13:50:00

2008-01-28T19:40:17Z

I finally sent my application off today for Chattahoochee Tech. I think I'll hear back from them soon. Now, I need to find a job. I'm thinking of taking my classes online this semester as well, since I don't think I can find a car in 2 months without a job. I don't think Mom will lend me a hand otherwise, since every other venue has been exhausted. Plus, it will give me a good opportunity to boost my GPA some more.

Ben just called, and invited me to the movies tonight. So I finally get to see Cloverfield. Yay!! :3

I got another game that I was looking for today. I managed to purchase Tetris DS on the cheap. ($29) Most people these days are selling for upwards of 40+ dollars; I saw one that went for 70 dollars!! So now I have two games to look forward to. Yay. :3 Tetris is my shit. ^^

Anyway, I ordered a pizza, which should be hear pretty soon.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Adventures in Diaper Buying

2008-01-25T01:45:15Z

These past couple of days have been rather interesting. The stuff on Amazon has been selling quickly, so it's more money in my pocket. Fr om now on, I shipping through USPS. I spent just $6 dollars today, while I usually spend around 29-40 dollars at those other shipping place. Lazy I will no longer be. :3

I've finally purchased my first Japanese NDS game, and it didn't render a large hole in my pocket. I bought FF Tactics A2: Fuuketsu no Grimoire (The Sealed Grimoire) for a decent price. I just couldn't wait until it came out when I'm 30. ;3. So now, I'm trying to finish the original game before I start on the newest one. :3

I had to help Ricky out today by buying diapers. All I have to say is that buying diapers with your brother (who knows more about diapers than you do.) is one of the funny moments that you don't really need alcohol to appreciate the humor of it. But sweet Jesus, diapers are expensive! I'm so glad that I don't have children right now.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

The Cool Die Young....

2008-01-23T01:25:36Z

Today was just not a good day. I'm still in shock that Heath Ledger was found dead this afternoon. According to some reports, they found some sleeping pills near him, which led investigators to believe that he overdose on them. It's pretty hard to OD on sleeping pills. I will have to wait until the entire report comes out to know the full story. I liked Heath Ledger's work, especially A Knight's Tale and 10 Things I Hate About You. I haven't seen Brokeback Mountain yet (I was waiting for the "gay cowboy" stigma to wear off), but I will now definitely make it a point to go see the new Batman movie when it comes out in honor of him.

In less exciting news, I did some winter cleaning today. I needed to gather all my books together so I can put them up for sale on Amazon Marketplace. I have far too many books lying around in my room, and I really need the money. I also straightened out my closet, since it had been junky since I moved in. I had planned on going to the movies to see Cloverfield, but I ended up not going because my friend decided to throw a fit, then bailed on me. I really need a job and a car, I feel like a hermit when I'm not in school. There's nothing for me to do...

Except for watching Maury and cooking up weird recipes...

Sigh....

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

fuzzycthulhu @ 2008-01-19T13:34:00

2008-01-19T18:34:52Z

Today is a good day for a huge mug of hot cocoa with whipped cream or marshmallows. It's snowing outside again. :3

This week went by rather quickly, which means that I need to start getting ready for school (I know that it isn't until March, but I need to get everything done by Feb. 29). We took Shon to Outback Steakhouse for his birthday. It was a nice time; Mom has had a really difficult week at school. Her principal is trying to exercise her own agenda, which is to either make Mom quit or curse her out. Mom cares too much for her students to get fired over some monkey-looking bitch. She treats her students like she would her own kids, so of course she wants what's best for them. Unfortunately, the principal just doesn't want to listen to her. I told her that she needs to do the same thing that the school that she got kicked out of did: picket the bitch. I don't know how that is going to work out (Apparently, the principal is related to the school superintendent) but the other teachers need to do something before this woman thinks she has complete control over the school.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Squee

2008-01-16T23:02:49Z

It's snowing!!! *happy squee*

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Stolen from surgingshark

2008-01-14T02:06:57Z

One Can Stand for Some Fun Every Once and Awhile....

2008-01-14T01:22:49Z

So Saturday didn't go as plan. Ben and I planned on seeing I am Legend, but we ended up missing our movie. Ben still doesn't know how to get to my house in less than 20 minutes. ;3 So we ended just deciding to go shopping. I had some money burning a hole in my pocket. So my first stop was Game Stop. I ended up getting Tales of Phantasia and Golden Sun (must find Golden Sun: The Lost Age if it kills me :3). After that, I wandered over to Borders. I made good on my promise to get myself a honest-to-goodness tarot card deck. After not being able to choose between all the lovely decks (I had to remind myself to not get all hung up on the different art styles), I ended up going with my gut instinct and purchased the Rider-Waite Deck. Now, I just need to learn how to do readings properly and I should be okay. :3

Ben laughed at me because I refused to go clothes shopping with him. I just don't like clothes shopping. :3

So now, I'm in the process of looking for some DS Lite decals to buy. My white DS is just driving me crazy, it's so plain. XP. I'm checking out Decal Girl and I've found two or three that I really like: Midnight Garden, Pink Tranquility, and Black/White Fleur. I wish I could just buy all three, but I know that I'll probably just use one and keep it like that.

Anyone know a place that sells DS Lite charms? :3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Not all Birthdays are Happy....

2008-01-11T17:06:05Z

My 22nd birthday did not turn out like I thought it would. Well, to be honest, I really wasn't setting my sights high, but some things were said that put the rest of my life in perspective. So, Mom and I spent three hours after she got home just putting everything out in the open. Saturday still weighed on both minds. I told Mom that Kenny needs to talk to therapist. Saturday confirmed that Dad might have caused more emotional damage than previously thought. And now that Kenny is going through the whole "surrogate father" thing with Gabrielle, Kenny needs to get his shit together before he unknowingly ruins her life with unneeded drama.

Mom had her questions for me as well. Like, why I didn't hate Dad as much as Kenny does. Why could I be moderately civil Dad after all the shit Dad had put me through (which included, but not limited to: shoving me into a wall, striking me in the face, sending me to juvenile detention, etc.)? The answer didn't come as fast as one would expect, because no one close to me has ever asked me that question until then. The best answer I could give Mom was this- after a while, you just have to turn the other cheek. As I got older, I could see how manipulative he really was, and I stopped being afraid of him. I grew sad, because my father tried to break my older brother down emotionally. And why? Because my father is a control freak, and felt threatened when anyone would try to take control away from him.

From there, I broke down and told Mom the real reason why the relationship between Ben and I went downhill so quickly. It wasn't because I didn't care for him. It was because Dad made it extremely difficult to be with him. Dad's controlling side came out, and when he realized that not only was I speaking up for myself, that Kenny and Shon were bonding with Ben, he realized that he was no longer in control. So he stopped allowing Ben to come by, and he eventually forced me to choose between Ben and him. I regretted my decision to end with Ben, because I had really loved him. But, I knew that if I did stay with him, my life would been hell. And at this point, I don't we will get back together, because he loves someone else, I'm happy being single, and I don't deserve him.

My life is such a soap opera sometimes.

Anyway, on to happier things. Ben wants to take to movie and lunch/dinner today. I really want to go see a few movies (Sweeney Todd, AVSP 2) and I can't decide which movie I want to see. And now that I have extra money to spend, I can buy myself some birthday gifts. :3 I dunno.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

It's My Birthday...and I'm scrubbing toilets....

2008-01-09T15:53:34Z

Lol, you know you've hit a rut when it's your birthday, and you're stuck cleaning your bathroom. Well, to be honest, the bathroom did need to be cleaned ASAP. It was getting quite nasty (Your bathroom would get nasty too if you had to share it with someone who swims in the shower and leaves soggy mats.) and I'm responsible for cleaning it almost of the time. Well, I'm responsible for keeping the parts of the house where people use the most.

Mom called me this morning to wish me happy birthday. Granted, I was rather tired. But it was still nice of her to tell me that. :3 She said she would take me to dinner. I would rather she buy food for the house instead. Cause I haven't had a decent breakfast in days. I honestly don't know what I want to do for my birthday. Turning 22 just doesn't have the spark of 21 I think. And to be honest, last weekend took a lot out of me emotionally. But then again, it's Kenny. I can't expect anything less from him. He kind of reminds me of a emotional parasite. He sucks the joy out of life sometimes, and wants everyone to join in his self-imposed misery.

I hate being the one person in my family that turned out normal. Whatever the fuck "normal" is.

I decided to use my birthday money to pay my application fee for Chattahoochee Tech. It would be the best way to spend the money, and I can knock that out of the way.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

P.S.: To everyone who's sent me birthday wishes, thank you!! :3

Rum, Chocolate, and Video Games

2008-01-08T19:13:56Z

Today was blissfully quiet. Kenny hasn't been here since early yesterday afternoon. He's not missed. I got a birthday card from Aunt Paula. It was the perfect thing to cheer me up this week. I love her to pieces; she's the sweetest woman I know. :3 She also sent me some money, which I'm going to put into savings as soon as I can. It was very nice of her; the card was plenty.

I really needed a drink last night, so I attempted to finish the rum off. So I mixed it with a little bit of soda, and also had the rest of the ice cream that my appetite kept me from eating. Nice little combination. I pretty much went to sleep soon afterwards.

I finally got FF IV in the mail today. YAY!! :3 I beat VI Sunday. I was soo happy to kill Kefka in the end. His crazy ass laugh was really starting to get on my nerves. I've been playing Tactics as well.

And I finally caught up on everything that is Dominic Deegan. I hadn't read the comic in about 2 years, and it was nice to catch up on my favorite characters (Luna and Rachel. Rachel especially, she breaks stuff with her face. *girly squee*). I feel sorry for both Jayden and Milov. Jayden screwed up big time, and Milov is definitely gonna need some time to heal. I hope they can eventually work everything out and get back together.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Chocolate Just Tastes Better...

2008-01-08T00:48:29Z

Well, the rest of my weekend sucked terribly (If you missed any of the drama, read my last two posts) and now my period has started. I know its a light one because I've got horrible cramps (I've literally not had cramps for almost 3 years). It's killing my appetite, and even the nummy chocolate fudge ice cream that I was trying to eat didn't taste all that great to me. But you know what's funny? Every year without fail, my period of the New Year always starts on or near my birthday. Well, such is life.

Speaking of my birthday, I really want to see The Orphanage. It's coming out on the 11th. And I know a few friends that really want to see it with me. :3 I also know that I'll be depositing at least $200 dollars in the bank, so I really want to get a tarot card for my birthday. I've been holding out on getting a deck for a few years now, because I'm stilling learning how to read. But I have an inkling on what set I want to get, and I'm also going to pick out a book to study.

Kenny still isn't speaking to me. I have no problem with that, because I haven't done anything wrong. If Kenny wants to act like I'm Dad and push all of his hate on me, and that I'm going to get all upset about it, then he can go right on ahead. I kinda don't care. :3

Anyway, I'm gonna order some pizza. :3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

fuzzycthulhu @ 2008-01-05T14:47:00

2008-01-05T21:13:49Z

This is pretty much a follow-up to the last post.

So I'll give you guys two guesses as to what happened this morning after everyone left. The choices are:

A. Everyone sits down and has a civil conversation. Everything is resolved.
B. The conversation quickly turns into a screaming match, with one party screaming at you and another party holding you down so you don't punch the shit out of them.

If you answered B, you're right and you probably know me a lot better than most. ;3

So I pretty much got pounced. I stood and told the truth. I said that I felt disrespected because I felt that my opinions don't matter with Kenny and that what I said went in one ear and out the other. I said that don't take advice from someone who is so messed up emotionally, he can't see two feet from his own ass. And that he is using

So that pretty much set Kenny off on a vicious little tirade. All of the stuff Kenny said I've heard from him before.

"All you did was kiss Dad's ass."
"You sold me out to Dad to save your own ass."
"You're a traitor. Fuck you."
"I trust Shon more than I trust you. Fuck you."
"Why don't you go back and live with Dad, since you kiss his ass so much?"

The whole time, I just felt this ball of rage just sitting in my stomach. You know, the one that makes you want to hit something? I just lashed out and smacked Kenny twice during the whole time we were fighting. Made me feel better. :3

So Kenny stormed out after the fight, and then Mom let me have it. Telling how much stuff Kenny has gone, how much she has gone through with Dad, and how "easy" I had it. That I catch an attitude sometimes.

So I have decided that I have had enough. I have had enough of the constant pity party that Mom and Kenny are going through. I am tired of people not being able to take what happens in their lives and actually grow from them. So Dad was an asshole while you were living with him? You're not living with him anymore, take the opportunity that has been given to you and grow from it. Dad was selfish while you were married? You left, so take the chance to heal and grow from that.

The real reason why Kenny said everything that I said is because I am very much like Dad. I don't indulge his little tantrums. I have said time and time again, I do not have the patience for it. I don't use my past as an emotional crutch. I'm not as emotional as Mom and Kenny; I do not wear my heart on my sleeve. But it does not mean that I love and care for the people in my life any less. And most importantly, I'm honest. It doesn't sit well for me to sugarcoat things when it comes to people that I care about.

I am quite fed up with having my character torn to shreds. Especially since I don't deserve it. So come June, if I can get a job and a car, I'm moving in with my friend Leigh. I might have to pay rent, but I think its a small price to pay for my peace of mind.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

So....So Mad Right Now.....

2008-01-05T10:16:52Z

I know its going on 4 in the morning, but yes, I'm still awake, and I'm really pissed. I don't think I can go to sleep right now, I'm so mad right now.

And you know what's shitty? The evening started off so well... :3

Anyway, I made the mistake of mentioning Ben's new significant other to Lenard, who then in turn mentions it to both Kenny and Mom.

Like I said, big mistake.

I won't mention why Ben's new squeeze is so controversial, because this is a public journal, but to be honest, it didn't bother me in the slightest.

However, it did bother Kenny.

A lot.

So the next 20 minutes were spent watching the conversation escalate into an battle of morales:

In this corner, standing 5'3" and weighing 170 pounds, the Chubby Liberal Chick! And in the other corner, standing at 5'8", weighing 150 pounds the Skinny Overbearing Brother!!

Ding Ding Ding!!!

I got a couple of shots in, but I had to pull out after the second round. Damn, ain't got the fight in me like I used to. ;3 The thing that made me half mad and half laugh was that Kenny tried to pull the whole "I'm Your Big Brother, so you have to listen to me." card. My brother never pulled that card before, which threw me for a loop. Basically, Kenny was trying to tell me that since he's my older brother, I must obviously share the same views and beliefs as him. That I have to tell Ben that dating his girlfriend is wrong because I'm his ex.

All I've got to say is that is:

No No No

No amount of sharing genes can change my views. Nothing. Buddha is gonna have to come down before my overly liberal views change even a little. Buddha better be glowing brightly too.

Now let's be honest. Most of friends know my views. Save for a few things, I have very liberal views. I support the gay and lesbian movement. I'm Pagan. People know this, fuck my parents know this. So getting into an argument over these two subjects is frowned upon. Cause I'm pretty much a stubborn bitch. I will listen to you what you have to say, but don't expect my views to suddenly change right then and there.

Now I say that to say this. I have never, and probably will never, tell one of my friends "You shouldn't date so-and-so because of their background." Not because I'm a pussy, but because I cherish my friends deeply. And since Ben is both my ex and best friend, and we just so happen have been friends longer that we've loved each other, I care for his happiness a lot.

See, I don't have that problem my brother has with his exes; I didn't jump head-first into relationships with people I know very little about.

I would never shove my views onto my friends; Kenny thinks that it's my obligation to do so. No, no it's not. And to be honest, I don't know where Kenny gets off telling me I need to listen because he's my big brother.

News flash: Kenny hasn't been my big brother since I turned 12. He hasn't been my "best friend in the world." since he's shoved me aside for his other friends. Since he felt drinking and smoking weed was "cool". Quite frankly, I respect his opinion so much less than he thinks. Because he stop being there for me when I needed him the most. And when I almost screwed up my future, he thought it was a joke. So, he's been merely a sibling for as long as I could remember. He has treated me with ill-aimed cruelty for all of these years, and I have been gentle and supporting of him. Taking the blame for minor offenses so I could keep the peace in the house. Being the quiet nurturer.

Did I ever want a thank-you? No. Did I deserve one? Maybe. Did I complain? Not until I got older and had far less patience to deal with my older brother and his tantrums.

Even as I type, Kenny is crumbling into another one of his infamous tantrums, sobbing and what not about how Dad was never there for him. It's the same story every time.

Here is the thing: Kenny has latched onto our stressful time growing up because it gives him an excuse to act the way he does. He acts like he's the only one that suffered because of Dad being self-absorbed. He acted liked Dad always came to my swim meets. Like Dad eagerly picked me up from practice every night in the dead of winter. He acted as though Dad really gave a damn about my achievements.

Hah! The fuck he did!

But I don't latch onto it and make it my crutch. After almost becoming a juvenile delinquent, I decided to get my life together and live it. To not let anything stop me from reaching my goals. To make me happy. I would never allow someone else to dictate my peace. So I made a promise to myself to put up with Dad until I could move out. Because while Dad was self-absorbed, he loved me. He nurtured my love for cooking and for squishy cute things. I got my work ethic from him. And while we had our disagreements, I know that if it wasn't for him pushing me to do my best, I would never be where I am right now.

So why did I stop living with him? Because the constant stress between Mom, Dad, and Kenny was getting unbearable. I had reached my emotional limits. I don't think its fair for me to not be able to stay at my own home because I could here the arguments through my music. That I had allowed my schooling to suffer because I could concentrate like I needed to. But most importantly, it was time to grasp my chance at peace. Something that I hadn't had since I was small.

I honestly thought that Kenny could find some peace as well. But unfortunately, he can't let go of old wounds. He claims that he took care of Shon and I while Mom was gone sometimes, but I wonder when I got a chance to do that between sleeping off hangovers and not being there. Bullshit , just utter bullshit.

So I guess me and Ben are gonna have to talk later today. Because I think things have changed now.

Anyway, it's a little after 5 in the morning. I'm awake, so I think I'm gonna play FF VI until I pass out.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

A New Year, A Fresh Start

2008-01-01T21:09:47Z

To all of my friends, I wish everyone a Happy 2008.

So last night was the most amount of fun I've had in quite a while. I should have known that when Caity, Leigh, Ben, and I get together, we get a little rowdy. And what was so funny about it was that we were hardly tipsy before someone's bra came off (not mine) and Ben would be wearing it on his head!! :3 I think I scarred Shon for life. But hey, he's 14. I've been messing him up forever. :3 Mom hung out with us going on 3 in the morning. Leigh and Mom actually sat down and had a serious conversation concerning Leigh home-schooling her sister Ysabel. Mom ended up recommended that Leigh bring her sister to one of the Robotics competitions and to get her involved in one of Lego Robotics competition for her age group.

Lol, while the night was awesome, it did have its negative. While Mom was pulling up an animation for the Robotics, a porn clip came up. While our exclamations of "OMG! WTH?!" were kind of funny, it wasn't what I needed to see in front of my mother. Mom questioned Shon after everyone left, and I vouched for Shon, because I knew that Shon hasn't been on those sites (He mostly goes on Youtube to play music videos. I know because you can here them all the way upstairs. :3) and that Mom needed to have a talk with Kenny ASAP. Now, do not get me wrong. I have no problem with looking at porn. However, that is Mom's laptop for Robotics, and she could have gotten fired if Mom hadn't realized it was on there and had pulled opened at school in front of people. Not to mention other things.

Now that another year has come and gone, it would be nice to take some time and reflect. To be honest, 2007 threw me for a loop. It started off okay, but I would quickly go through so many emotional ups and downs, towards the end of the year, I was emotionally breaking down. My internship turned out to be almost like being caged, instead of being another learning and growing experience. School was alright, but then it became more difficult as my home began to crumble around me. It's weird that once the year came to a close, my life began to take an upturn. I started to connect with old friends and for once, I was able to focus on school and actually get good grades for a change. And now, I have a sense of peace in my life. I no longer feel as though I will never accomplish my goals my way.

So what is my New Year's Resolution? You know, I hadn't thought of one until now. My mom's was simple- To be completely selfish. That fits her because she's one of the most selfless people that I know, and she needs to make herself happy for a change. And she will need all the happiness that she can get. I know that this year is going to be very hard for her. So I came up with a resolution of my own- Accomplish my goals. I want to get a degree in culinary arts. Now that I have my own digital camera, I want to start a food blog. :3 I just want to be able to do what I need to do without people giving me resistance.

Well, it's 4 p.m. now. I'm a little pooped, and I have a slight headache. It's going away now that I've eaten something. So, I would like to leave you guys with pictures of our little shindig that got a *wee* bit out of hand:

Yay for last minute thinking.

2007-12-31T22:46:04Z

So, due to some quick planning on my part, I've managed to throw together a little gathering at my house. So Ben, Leigh and Caity are coming by tonight to ring in the New Year with me. :3 Hillarious shenanigans will ensue, I ensure you. Oh, and will be taking pictures. :p.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

My Collection is Complete!!! ebil laugh

2007-12-30T18:00:47Z

I've finally completed my Final Fantasy collection for the GBA!! :3 I picked up FF VI yesterday, and I just bought FF IV off Ebay.

I'm such a Final Fantasy geek. I wonder if there is an FFA club somewhere. If there is, I need to check myself into it. ;3

Yesterday was actually a really good day. I went to the Gamestop near my house with Ben in tow. Ben offered to come along because he had beaten the game I'd gotten him for Christmas (Psychonauts, which I recommended to him cause I thought he would like it. He loved it! :3) and wanted to find something else to play. I ended up getting the last FF VI out of the used GBA games case, which almost didn't happen because the store clerk was going to buy it for himself. I used my cute girl charms on him (last resort, I swear!! ;3) and he relented.

And they actually asked if I wanted a job!! :3 I was totally happy, cause I kinda need a job and I know quite a bit about video games. :3 After we left Gamestop, we went to a damn fine Mexican place across the way. They have the best salsa evar. :3 The salsa had cilantro in it, which I love and never get enough of. And Ben and I had a long discussion on how much of a self-important jerk my father is most of the time, and how certain people think I'm very naive.

So overall, I had a really nice Saturday. Mom left this morning to go the last Falcons game, and people are still sleeping. New Year's is up in the air. I would like to have people over, since not everyone knows where I live and it would be nice not to have an nasty allergic reaction. ;3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

fuzzycthulhu @ 2007-12-28T23:37:00

2007-12-29T04:52:50Z

It's been a nice couple of days. Very quiet and all that.

I've been playing FF Tactics Advance all day. I've completed 179 missions so far, so I've gotten pretty far in the game over the last couple of days. I might pick up some games over the next week or so.

Leigh has invited me to spend New Year's weekend with her.

I offered to bring the tequila and the margarita mix. *snerk* :3

This year has definitely turned out to be far from what I had expected. I hope 2008 is full of surprises. :3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

P.S- To all my new friends, a bit of a warning. My journal is full of angst, alcohol, video games, and generally geekery. :3

Obligatory "What I Got for X-Mas" Post

2007-12-26T17:43:27Z

So here's my haul for this year:

2 Sweaters
Nice new coat :3
Sundries
Olympus FE-210 digital camera (Yay, now I don't have to steal Kenny's camera to take pictures.)
$25 Gift Card for Gamestop

:3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

fuzzycthulhu @ 2007-12-25T12:42:00

2007-12-25T17:44:15Z

To all of my lovely friends on LJ, I wish you a Merry Christmas, Yule, and Giftmas. :3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Dinner...And a weird dream...

2007-12-24T17:08:55Z

So, last night Dad came by for dinner. It was very nice. We just talked about funny stuff that had happened to us over the years. Dad left around 9:30 and I went to bed about an hour later.

So I had a really weird dream last night. I was back at City Hall, and I was an intern again. I was just sitting at my desk in the front, and I was working on something. I don't know why, but earlier, me and Emory had gotten into another argument, and it had gotten nasty. Most of my good friends know how much I strongly dislike him, so I figured it was just that manifesting in my dreams. I can remember telling him to "Act like I don't exist, like you always have. I'll do the same." So, I was sitting at my desk, minding my own business, when he comes up to m y desk and calls my name. I was ignoring him, but I couldn't hear him either because I had my music up loud. Next thing I know, I felt cold water on my face and soaking into my shirt.

I honestly didn't think after that, I just started hitting Emory in the face. People rushed in to pull me off of him, but I shrugged them off. I'd never been that angry in my life, and I also never hated someone that much before. It was very out of character for me; I'm not a violent person. I woke up after a while, and just sat up and just started to think about some thing:

Why do I dislike Emory? Why did this dislike manifest so violently?

What I concluded is simply: Emory is the only guy that I know that makes me put my guard up. I've always watched what I've said around him, because I simply can not trust him. Time and and time again, he disrespected people that think highly of him. Everyone thinks that he is the epitome of the "good boy". I see right through the bullshit, and I've made that clear.

The dream also left me with a sense of foreboding. What will happen if we intern together again? I strongly doubt that I will, since I need to find a job in my career field. And to be honest, working in that office is like high school all over again, except for the fact that we're all grown-ups with degrees. I felt so isolated.

Anyway, gotta fix myself breakfast. :3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

fuzzycthulhu @ 2007-12-23T13:15:00

2007-12-23T18:17:00Z

You know what's nice?

It's Sunday morning, and I'm sitting here in my comfy pjs. I'm not outside doing yard work. I'm not worrying about getting a project finished to be submitted.

So I went X-mas shopping with my friend yesterday. We hit up Gamestop and Wal-Mart. I got Shon one Xbox 360 game, since Mom told me that she was getting him one. Unfortunately, he's not getting one right now, so I asked Mom to return the game for me. X3 I picked up a fuzzy robe and slippers and a bath and body set from Wal-Mart for Mom.

I got an application for the Gamestop that I went to, since they needed help really bad. Mom's going by there to drop off my application and to see if they have any 360s left. I also picked up FF Tactics Advanced and Rivieria: The Promise Land. I've got to say, I really like Rivieria. It's got a great story so far and a really interesting art style.

Mom just left, so I guess it's time to get out of pjs. :3

Peace and bare feet,

Chae

Nom Nom, Part II

2007-12-22T04:10:07Z

So, mom and I went to Nagano's, which is much closer to our house than the other sushi place near Stonecrest.

Mom had the lobster and shrimp tempura rolls, while I had the spicy tuna roll and the lobster tempura roll. Both were very nummy. :3

I must learn how to make sushi.

Peace and bare feet,

Chae